I Found an Old Journal…
Where are my fellow inconsistent journalers?
Whoa, inaccurate judgment of myself. I was an inconsistent journaler. Then 2 months ago, I found something that I’m actually sticking with… but more on that later!
This week, I was cleaning off a bookshelf and I found a journal that I wrote in sporadically from 2015 to 2017. I have it open next to me right now and as I flip through and find some gems, I’ll share them with you.
An excerpt from November 21, 2015 (I remember writing this while waiting for a yoga and meditation workshop to start): I’m allowed to ask for what I want. My feelings are reasonable & important. I am rooted by my own strength. I honor myself. I honor what I want, need, feel.
Consciously engage with the flow. Show trust in how we are being led. I will always be led in the right direction if I listen to myself. When you trust yourself, nothing else matters.
An excerpt from December 5, 2015: Remember the things that feel right. Luxuriate.
On January 1, 2016: a page of ideas to name this blog. I Believe in Bunnies is the first idea on the list. Proof that first instincts are often the right ones.
Six pages of notes from April 8, 2016, the first time that I went to a talk given by my teacher Gabby Bernstein. The words are practically glimmering off of the pages as I reflect back. One gem that Gabby said: “When we pray for guidance, sometimes chaos shows up first.”
An excerpt from December 22, 2016: It’s after noon & I just realized I hadn’t breathed today. (I remember sitting in cafeteria duty writing that).
General observation: A lot of the goals and mantras in this journal are things I’m still working on… but damn how I’ve grown! Give yourself massive credit for how far you’ve come (I’m talking to myself and to you).
Wow, this was a moment, a sweet way to spend some time on this my last day of vacation. Lots of memories flooding back in… and, interestingly enough, those goals and gets that I thought I wanted in 2016 and 2017, that didn’t happen… when I look at my life now, those things were so not meant to be. Reflection is a good lesson in faith.
Oh, before you go… I told you that I would share about a journal/self-care practice that is consistently working for me: Silk & Sonder Go check it out!