I am no longer allowing this missing piece translate to missing peace. I am telling a new story. You are the first to hear about it. Grateful to you for “listening” today.
I’ve been holding back from truly stepping into a component of this work and of my personal development because there is a piece to my story that I’m not ready or maybe not willing to tell. I struggle with the idea of telling my story without telling that story. Can I be authentic and leave out a big piece? My answer to that was no. I’ve held back so much because I didn’t think I could share my light fully without sharing that piece. And I do not want to share that piece. I’m not going to share that piece. There’s no secret link embedded here. I’m not going to do a big reveal at the end of this entry. These types of thoughts and the struggle arriving here has robbed me of some peace and have stunted my healing. Thus, I’ve felt stunted in sharing healing. It’s cyclical.
As I sat down to write to you today (or do I write this to me and you just peek over my shoulder?) I opened to a page in my notes from the Spirit Junkie Master Class that I attended last June. On that pink page I wrote, “Be not afraid— be empowered.” Gabrielle taught us how our inner guides are begging use to release our resistance. I’m sure hearing that six months ago, I interpreted that as a call to reveal my missing piece. Now, I see it as permission to release the expectation of telling it all, the expectation of being as transparent as many others seem to be. Gabrielle taught us to step into the darkness so we can dive into the light. I am. I am finding my peace privately. I can do that and still share healing publicly. Today I give myself that permission.
Gabrielle imparted on us, her Spirit Junkie disciples, that we look at our stories from a place of power. My missing piece deals a lot with shame and guilt. I will find the power. You all help to lift me up. Forever grateful. Big stuff coming… Much love.